Reminiscer: pilot
Oh my goodness. I just had a dream that I'm
almost scared to tell, because it was so real. I actually almost believe it.
Possibly it could be used for a movie script one day, although I'm sure I won't
be paid. I may just write a book on it in the coming years.
I, Jason K. Addae, was working with a group
of scientists, who specialized in reanimation and time warping technology that
was newly developed. Apparently, we discovered a way to travel, through a sleep
induced state, through a person's consciousness, back into their body at a
younger state, at various points in time. The entire time, you would remain in
remote contact, somehow, with the team, but would require some kind of wireless
connection and television on the other end where you were, in order to complete
the transfer project. Even as I write this, people are suddenly stirred from their
sleep and walking about as if sent as secret agents to discover me.
Anyway, I, as a member of the team decided to
go in and experiment with the technology personally. I went to one point
successfully as a young child, was able to communicate with the team and walk
around comfortably. I performed tasks, and made sure not to reveal anything on
the other side, which could jeopardize the entire process and state of things.
One subtlety of the technology is that the longer you stayed in, the more
"attached" so to speak you became, and even felt to the former self,
and the harder you would be to extract. Oh my goodness, if you could see the
chaos suddenly going on in my surroundings as I write this. It's as if I must
be kept from revealing this at all costs. As I was saying, as I embarked upon
the experiment, I could feel over lengths of time, a small gap between myself
and the host’s sensory system tightening until it felt as if I was almost
completely in the body. Imagine it this way: It's like going from being an
observer to, over time, being completely one with the person you were watching.
The scientist team didn't quite understand the dangers that could result from
this, but aired on the side of caution with it. During the first extraction
there were no issues. I was in my body as a very young boy of no more than 6. I
began to replay a secluded memory of some valuable life lesson which I can’t
recall. It’s almost as if the scientific method is reliant on pivotal
historical points. In that experience, I was comfortably within my younger body
and able to feed off of that reticent intuition of that time to feel out what I
needed to do next to keep the arc of events intact. It went well, and almost
felt like a very enjoyable movie of childhood times. I saw old teachers and
relatives, in a way I haven’t seen them for ages. I almost wanted to capture
that time. That couldn’t have been a mere dream. As I write this, the
surreality of it all floors me. I was extracted.
However, on the next extraction, I was in the
company of a difficult group of people, including my brother, or at least his
younger self, from the years we were teenagers, and a very energetic kid who
was a friend of mine. The thing is that the process takes a bit of time, and
requires a window of exclusion on the subject's part. I made the mistake of
staying in too long. I was curious, and the team warned me several times
through the radio link.
I
started to feel, after extended contact with the host body- my former self,
that I was completely syncing. Partly, it was beyond my control. Contact with
immediate family, especially my brother, runs the high risk of discovery and
extreme time consumption. When he finally did leave me alone, the kid began to
harass me. He continued to want to play, so I had to feign fatigue and illness
to have his mother pull him away. I finally seemed to have a window to extract,
and as I was becoming fearful, I eagerly wanted to do so. However, during the
extraction, I got a radio from the team that on their surveillance they saw an
approaching disruption and I needed to shut down immediately. The problem with
me being in so long, and having so nearly synced, is that I almost couldn't
hear the message from the team. When I did, I was panicking, thinking that I
was surely going to be caught and bring tragedy on us all. I dove out of the
couch and franticly pushed the power button on the wireless connection there
and the television, turning it back on once by mistake. Luckily, it ultimately
turned off as I dove back into the couch and the child re-entered the room. I
was able to play sleeping again as his mother came to collect him. I was in cold
sweats at this point, as I felt I would never be extracted. I eventually dozed
off, after never hearing contact from the team after that point. I had hoped
that the amount of time we had during attempting the last transfer would have
gleaned them some information to assist me in time. My hopes were possibly
realized, as I woke up. Now, I'm sitting here writing this and wondering if the
team saved me, or if that was in fact only just a dream.
I am
committed to discovering this technology and expounding on it one day. I don’t
know if I’ll ever find that team of brilliant scientists and cohorts, but I
will find the like. Technology like this is too amazing to not be experienced
and unraveled. I’ve even had more insane experiences related to that technology
that I dare say now. I believe I’ve gotten younger at various point since the
inception of this work. Hear me out. I know I sound mad, but I can explain.
Since I’ve experienced this technology, when I dream, I dream different. At
times, I replay fragmented scenarios, similar to the warping device. They are
almost every bit as real as the machine itself. When I awake, I find myself
almost waking up into the exact setting and situation, only in the current
world. My mind and body feel as they did in that time. I mean exactly. And it
feels unreal, as I walk away and expect it to fade. Only it doesn’t. Almost
like my mind and body have been reset. I have only left to prove this finding
on a genetic level, but I will.
I
have often wonder if I was just the perfect subject all along. You see, my dear
friend, I suffer from a long standing condition defined as sleep-paralysis. It’s
a condition that isn’t very well understood by scientists still today. It is
known to be chronic, and an unending condition. I’ll explain it to you briefly,
as it isn’t very well known. In sleep paralysis, the subject has a habitual
condition of waking half-way up during predominantly mid-day rests, only to be
unable to move, yet aware completely of their surroundings. The added twist is
that visions, sometimes distracting, sometimes holding some type of symbolism
or importance, can, and often do, infiltrate these half-dreams. The physical
reason for the paralysis is actually a protective one. When the body goes to
sleep, it emits chemicals into the brain that prevent you from acting on your
dreams or sleep-walking. In fact, people who sleep-walk, suffer from not
producing that chemical reaction, and can get into all kinds of trouble and
danger. Over the years, suffering with this condition, my dreams were haunted
at times by evil, perhaps in part due to experiences I regret. Often, I would
be assaulted in these dreams, and suffocated. There were several instances
where I nearly died within these experiences. I can’t get others to understand
that, because of the very few who suffer from this ailment, I know of none who
have it as severely as I do.
I
was in mortal fear that this condition would kill me, drive me mad, or both. I
really did lose my mind to a degree dealing with it and the lack of ability to
convey belief in it. In time, I began to embrace the potentialities it held,
whatever they may be. I then, when calm, was able to resolve myself to get
mastery over the condition, and use it as a benefit. “Just imagine,” I thought,
“the ability to control your dreams and interact with the surrounding
environment as well, at the same time.” The thing about sleep paralysis, is
that it is not patterned in how it attacks. It comes at random times, sometimes
even months, or years apart. That’s what makes it do daunting. So I began to
brace myself through meditation, for the next attack. At first, I would revert
into a shriveling coward when it happened. But then, I soon gained confidence
and was eventually able to audibly speak, fight back, and even move my body
during the attacks. I was quite proud of that accomplishment, and it’s only now
that I realize its significance. This could be a precursor, or a key to the
technology that I and the scientists developed.
Years ago, seeing the movie “Inception,”
brought encouragement and hope to me with both my condition and the science.
The movie was very similar to what my experience feels like. It gets so much
deeper.
In
the normal dream world, people have either a fantastical or a realistic plot
line that plays out briefly and ends. In my dreams, I’ve had condensed full
days play out in minutes, second for second. That in itself is a marvel I aim
to unravel. I’ve also had the layered dreams depicted in the movie countless
times. These are dreams within dreams, within dreams. Some people will think
that they recall something similar, but the truth is that it is rare to unheard
of to have more than 2 layers. I’ve had over 3 several times. All of this makes
clear the truth of my suspicions - there is more to this process and its
potential.
If
you recall, in the movie, they were able to unlock and imbed things into deep
recesses of a human mind, sometimes even rewriting memories, using that
technology. Imagine if you could unlock your own potential. Let me delve deeper
into this. I’m a writer and thinker by nature. I’ve written many pieces over
the years. Some of them, I wonder how I wrote, in that I don’t fully understand
them at the time, only to come back many years later, and discover troves of
ideas and knowledge in those many lines that I didn’t realize I was revealing.
I know, to you this must sound far- fetched, but I tell you it is only a
testament to my connection to the science at hand. In my layered dreams, I have
at times figured out, and put together solutions that I had been aching over
while awake. Suddenly, as if in a transcient state, I will effortlessly put
together the inner workings of some problem without even meaning to, and awake
with the answer. This science could unlock the ability to control this
phenomenon and reach a higher level. Just imagine the possibilities. I must go
now, my dear friend. Look for me soon. I will continue my pursuit.
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